New beginnings

It has been a long time, since I've posted anything here. A lot has happened during this time, good and bad. I had to find myself and cut some people out of my life. Not even.because they.did.something specific, but just to go in the right direction. I am happier now, than I have been in the past year or so and I believe it's only going to go further in the right direction. I am looking into a positive future.


I just arrived home from Hamburg, where I went to see Adam Lambert in concert. He blew me away. His voice is live about 3000 times better than recorded. I was teary-eyed all through the slow, acoustic part in the middle, and jumping up and down at the end.

It was so worth it!!!

It ended on a slightly weird note, as there was no encore. Rumours are, that the venue wouldn't allow him to do an encore, because it was already after ten. Still kind of a weird ending to a fabulous concert.

Adam Lambert in Germany

I'm so exited - Adam Lambert is going to do 5 concerts in Germany. In the fall.
And one of them is in Hamburg, which is not to far away, so 
I just bought my ticktet and I am going to see him on November, 14.

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So let me get this straight - Larry King is getting his 8th divorce, Elizabeth Taylor is possibly getting married for a 9th time, Britney Spears had a 55 hour marriage. Jesse James and Tiger Woods are screwing EVERYTHING, yet the idea of same-sex marriage is going to destroy the institution of marriage?? Really? REALLY??

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The German Idol, again... and some private stuff

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Here a little visual for all of you:  Does his hair remind you of somebody, or am I getting crazy in my old age?

He was so good last saturday. I really hope he is going to win. It's not that is such a big deal, like in America, but I would love to buy a CD from him. His voice just rings something in me.

On another topic. I got an new notebook for my birthday, which I'm really excited about. It's so cool to lay on my bed, and watch another Clip of the Idolshow, or read something from my friends page. I love it!!!!!

Another much sader note. My guinea pig, well my daughters' guinea pig died yesterday. She was pretty sad about. We went to my parents, and buried it there under their balcony today. My daughter was sobbing, I was fighting tears, and my mother cried, too. We don't have a pet anymore now. I'm not sure I would want another pet, We are usually not home a lot   and I don''t think that that fair.

A friend of mine just called me, and told me, that she had a pretty big car crash. She broke up with her boyfriend a few weeks ago, and had just moved into a new apartement. Now she drove much to fast, when she was drunk. She lost her drivers license her car is wrecked, and she is pretty banged up. Thank god tat she didn't hurt anybody else. I had been worrying about her, but she is pretty cloth mouthed and has a lot of problems. Even in pretty good times she cuts herself. I have no idea what this will do to her?? I hope that she will get back on her feet. I have no idea how to help her. I offered to talk and to listen. We work together, she is my boss and I hope she knows, that she doesn't have to worry about buisness.....

Okay, i probably should go to bed, because tomorrow is Monday and there is a lot to do..

  • Current Music
    Daniel Schumacher - Here comes the rain again

My life, on an all time low

Like a year before, I just don't know anymore, what I should do. My daughter got in some trouble, because she stole something at a shop (some Topmodel-stickers for christsake), we all had a really bad cold, and now:

My dad needs to go to the hospital again, tomorrow.
He had surgery on his leg about three to four times in the last year. Now his bypass in that leg has closed itself up and needs to be opened up.
Meanwhile my mothers condition (she has MS) has gotten dramatically worse. She can almost not walk with her rollator anymore, she can't take the six steps to leave the condo anymore, she has trouble sleeping at night, and I have to work.
I don't know what i should do. I can't quit me job, because I'm a single mom, and I have to support myself and my children.
My dad will possibly retire this year, but if he does so, money will be tight for my parents, because its 4 years early.

In my opinion my mom needs to accept, that she will have to use a wheelchair in the future. But the condo is not exactly ideal for a wheelchair, the bathroom is too small, there are six steps, that lead up to the condo. And I think the have to start looking for another apartement. One, where you can have access to all rooms with a wheel chair. My mom says my father doesn't want to move, my dad says my mom doesn't want, too. I think they probably can't afford a move, but it can't go on like it has over the last 12 months.

I'm so helpless. Did I mention that I'm single and an only child........
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